Afraid to chop
I am 42 years old and have tried to go natural by growing my perm out two or three times. Each time I gave up and went back to the relaxer because i thought I would looked bad. As a child I was often told that I was ugly and stupid so I put a lot of energy and effort into looking good and fallowing what was thought to be acceptable. This year I noticed how much thinner my hair was and realized that my new growth seemed to be much thicker so I got up the nerve after two rounds of micro braids to chop it off. Surprisingly all of my friends loved it. Some of my family was negative but I realized how much I had grown when it did not bother me. It has been eight months sense I chopped it and I am loving my hair. I ended a bad relationship and some bad habits and now I have many new good habits as well as a new Great relationship with Jonathan F Traylor who my very well be the love of my life. I am happy and have much joy in my life and can not wait to see how my hair looks in another eight months.
Eight months and counting
I just looked back at my first picture after cutting my hair, All I can say is wow. I did not realize how much it has grown. I have also lost 14.5 pounds. I feel and look great. I am also in love with an amazing man who motivates me to do and be my best. I can not wait to see what the future holds.I am also done with all course work to have my BA in Psychology I just need to find work now. It is very hard out here for a pimp lol but I am not giving up. I am glad that I did this and I am looking for new ways to keep my hair from drying out and to protect it so that it will grow. I have visions of me with one of those Diana Ross looks one of these days. |