I have come to the realisation that I have always been an idealist and it has screwed me over. I liked to think that I was a realist, but I wasn't, not at all. I wish I could go on living as an idealist, cause it's kinda fun, you know, looking forward to the best of everything and in everyone, but life just isn't like that and I am honestly tired of setting myself up and then getting hurt. There is so much more I have to learn, I just hope I make it through with my sanity (since I no longer have my unbridled romanticism) to keep me going.
I ain't thirsty. There's plenty of fish in the sea, but I don't want all of them, can I have some standards? Or do we just have to settle, for someone's who meh and will do.
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