I keep checking my email every 5 minutes. I don't have internet at home, so I hope to hear something before I have to go home. I really, really don't want to hurt him. I told him that we wouldn't be happy if we continued together. He would feel neglected and I would feel smothered.

I'm actually relieved that he showed himself early on. I'd hate to invest 6 or more months with him and then learn this about him.
From Michael Berg:

Every person has a unique connection to the Creator that can never be extinguished, and every person has a great soul that can manifest important things in our world. To make a person feel less than they are because of something inside themselves, be it faith, race, or sexual orientation, is the greatest sin of all."