I keep checking my email every 5 minutes. I don't have internet at home, so I hope to hear something before I have to go home. I really, really don't want to hurt him. I told him that we wouldn't be happy if we continued together. He would feel neglected and I would feel smothered.
I'm actually relieved that he showed himself early on. I'd hate to invest 6 or more months with him and then learn this about him.