You are so awesome.
I've put off applying to anything because the thought of it makes me want to throw up.
Also the recommendation letters are the biggest turn off, every professor at my school as the reputation of being horrible at writing recommendation letters, as in they procrastinate doing it, so you have to bug the hell out of them
I also want one from my boss, but she's very....slack also, I mean she's busy, and would put it off also.
It's very annoying.
I also don't like the feels of rejection so I don't want to apply. Which is why I didn't want to apply for colleges in high school either, I just wanted to got community college because they accept everyone.

But then my father made me. I already missed my date to apply to a big time university that is 5 seconds from my house.
The whole thing makes me want to vomit.
Good luck cocot!
How'd you do your recommendation letters btw?
Actually anyone answer.
My school also sucks because our advisers are professors, which means they don't really give af, about your life after college they just want to tell you what classes to take and kick you out of their office. (AND THEY DON'T CARE IF THE CLASSES HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING YOU LIKE HOW MANY PLANT CLASSES HAVE I TAKEN WHEN I CARE NOTHING OF PLANTS) I wanted to write that on my exit survey but I had to hand it to my adviser LOL, so I didn't want him to read it. Because I was gonna rip him a new one.