This sounds like a self esteem issue not a curly hair issue. I think most people on this website used to dislike their hair and wish it was straight. But now we all love our hair because we know how to take care of it. I hope I'm not sounding too preachy but I hope you do find a way to feel better about yourself because it sucks to have low self esteem. I've been there. I think the best way to get out of it is to do things you enjoy and try to better yourself as a person inside and out. What helped me with my hair was, The Curly Girl Handbook and the curly girl method in general. My hair loves it. And I think going on youtube and actually seeing other people's curly hair looking fabulous helped "retrain" my brain to see that straight wasn't better.
But anyway, I hope you can see that you are just as beautiful as anyone else and nothing, especially HAIR makes you any less.
Fine Strands, High Density, Low Porosity
CG since August 2011
Loving my hair!!!