Heh, I love that you're wearing a fedora while wielding it.
(((kayb))) I can relate to feeling like you're doing life wrong. Gotta say, though, I think it's really cool that you can and do roll with whatever life gives you, and all of your life experiences will make for much better stories for any eventual kids who'd get to be raised by someone super awesome and totally ready. I know I like reading about them.
...It's a siggie