OMG, I am so, so, so sorry
I remember the day after my little nephew died, I just got in the car and drove to town. And went to the stores, including the one I worked at. My coworkers were shocked to see me--my best friend was too, when I showed up at her house. But she stayed with me while I browsed through the stores, crying the entire time.
It's okay to come here; if NC.com had been here back then, I would have been posting too.
You and your family are in my prayers. ((hugs))