I texted him because I felt horrible and said that I was going to go back home. He started going on about how I'll feel better in a few weeks with time and how I'm better here in France. Then he stops, and when I call him he ignores my calls. I'm hurt but I know it's my all damn fault cause he doesn't give a **** about me and my feelings being hurt. I wanna cut my heart out because it would hurt less than being found less valuable than someone who shouldn't.