I just caught up on some of the posts. I see many have been having bad days, hard times or are going through something so...
Wild Sas, I am so very sorry. I have been in that position, with my grandfather. I just stayed by him, held his hand, talked to him, and told him it was okay to go. I managed to have some very special moments with him, even though he was not himself, due to the morphine.
I know it is hard, and again I am sorry, but glad you are able to be with him.