I'm really sorry Soleil.
If you feel like listening to sad songs (I know you do), listen to Gabrielle's "Out of Reach". It's just your story. I love her music. It was on the Bridget Jone's Diary 2 soundtrack. It's a sad story, but it's a strong story because in the end she says that even if he never loved her, she knows that there is more for her out there. And there is for you.