I'm in meltdown mode today. I don't know what is wrong with me. I just want a job and means to support myself. I cannot believe it's been 2.5 years. I wish people could know how I knocked myself out at that last job! I worked so hard. I don't know what else they wanted from me. It was SUCH GOOD MONEY and I was finally able to move. I'm just still really angry at myself, and I still blame myself. What did they want after 2 months?????? Just bad people.

I'm just so frustrated and sad and feel like it's just too late all around. Something has gotta give soon. I was googling things and making myself crazier and reading an article about how women always assume they'll be at a certain age and either have a family or be wildly successful...but then when you don't have EITHER you just feel like this total failure, and I feel like that right now.