You are right. It is definitely not easy. I guess part of me worries I will miss him so much. Yet, if I am not willing to continue, but stay with him, I don't want to add stress on him and he begins to have learned helplessness- this constant feeling of failing. It is not right. But I think you are right, I need to figure out what I want from life. Thank you so much! You don't know how much this is helping me.