You didn't even read my e-mail you creep. I am so suspicious of you and have lost most of the trust I had in you. Your actions/non-actions over the past few days tell me my instincts are dead on. I am exhausted with the effort it takes to work in an environment where people are passively hostile and where management is walking on our backs to implement this crap. Sorry, a good salary and stable? job is no longer enough. What I do for the next 10 years is going to be pivotal. I don't know what it is yet, but I know what it isn't. And I want it to be in a place whose baseline promotes peace, harmony and cooperation.
I am so glad I'm in therapy and I'm so glad I have a dynamic Bible Study group. Enjoyment - wow, what a concept in a job requirement, and in the process of finding one. I know this strife and discomfort is a gate God has opened up to lead me into greener more abundant pastures where I don't have to hide my soul. God has made the decision about how and where to deploy me. All I need to do is devote my free will to discerning it. I will search for a good career counselor/life coach. I will find a way to learn how to better manage my household and finances. And I will find new and better ways in communicating with myself in love and care.