There's so much I wanna say....so much I'm feeling. I'm a fighter, but I'm not going to fight alone. I'm respecting your feelings but don't expect me to wait around for you to realize that I'm the best thing to happen to you since having your two boys.
You don't block your blessings because of you having unresolved feelings concerning your past(love). You can't recapture what you never had in the first place. But maybe this is a lesson you'll have to learn the hard way....for the THIRD time. You're almost 40. Time for you to seriously think about what you want long-term and not get caught up on what once was, or what you once wanted it to be, but never was.
Either way, I'm going to be fine. I love you SO SO much, but I love myself more, and if you can't give me what I deserve, there are men who would be more than happy to take your place.