Success/Progress Thread - Page 4

murrrcat · 07-19-2012, 09:50 PM

You guys are so awesome.

I suck at losing weight, I just don't lose weight.

I don't know. I suck.

Change scares me and I think thats the biggest thing, what if I lose weight and I'm still miserable. What if I lose weight and everything is awesome. I don't like to not know. I know life won't really be that different but it scares me soooo much. I think because I day dream a lot so I have this like perfect world in my head, and if I lose weight and it's not perfect than I'll be really disappointed and I'd rather be stuck and safe in my bubble and day dream about my life than actually change it, and I don't know how to get out of this thinking? What???

But then like before I gained all this weight, I still didn't even like my legs, because they were all muscular and athletic and you could see every muscle I felt like, BUT LIKE now I WISH those were my legs.

I'm just one of those people that will never be satisfied. I'll never be happy. But then like some days I'm okay with my weight, I just accept it and it's just a part of me not the whole picture.. I'm just crazy. I'm in a hazy day dream all the time. I need to wake up.

Everything is mental, running that extra mile, losing weight, it's all in my brain for me.

gagirl09 · 07-20-2012, 05:18 AM

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Originally Posted by murrrcat

You guys are so awesome.

I suck at losing weight, I just don't lose weight.

I don't know. I suck.

Change scares me and I think thats the biggest thing, what if I lose weight and I'm still miserable. What if I lose weight and everything is awesome. I don't like to not know. I know life won't really be that different but it scares me soooo much. I think because I day dream a lot so I have this like perfect world in my head, and if I lose weight and it's not perfect than I'll be really disappointed and I'd rather be stuck and safe in my bubble and day dream about my life than actually change it, and I don't know how to get out of this thinking? What???

But then like before I gained all this weight, I still didn't even like my legs, because they were all muscular and athletic and you could see every muscle I felt like, BUT LIKE now I WISH those were my legs.

I'm just one of those people that will never be satisfied. I'll never be happy. But then like some days I'm okay with my weight, I just accept it and it's just a part of me not the whole picture.. I'm just crazy. I'm in a hazy day dream all the time. I need to wake up.

Everything is mental, running that extra mile, losing weight, it's all in my brain for me.

I think once you definitively figure out how you feel about you weight and find that one reason to lose weight everything else will fall away. Honestly I have been overweight for as long as I remember and as I grew older I would want to lose weight but one of the things that kept me from sticking with it was how I actually felt about my body. Sometimes it was more of what my family and society felt than how I truly felt. I left high school a size 18 I think and I actually felt like if I had a boyfriend that truly loved me I could stand before him naked and feel alright. I changed in front of other women much smaller than me with very little hesitation. I was always faltering with weightloss because I did not want folks hovering around me that was never there before because now I was smaller. That would totally hurt my feelings and so that helped hinder me somewhat too. However someTHING changed. I won't go into that all right now but once I finally sat down and really listened to ME I became more focused. I actually did not work out for almost two months but because I wanted to stay the course I tried to maintain healthy eating choices and my helped too. As a result the scale stayed at a +3;-3 difference. I started back working out last week, I also have been juicing to reset myself and give myself a little boost of confidence. In the end these reasons that I spent time really truly meditating about made me not throw everything away because a voice in my head kept saying: you're not finished yet. Keep going.

gagirl09 · 07-20-2012, 05:19 AM

On another note my fingers have started losing weight

inheritedcurls · 07-23-2012, 12:38 PM

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This is the first time I've done the side by side comparison. I'm going to look at this when ever I get discouraged about these last 40 pounds because I've come a LONG way.

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All I can say is Wow! Just Wow... You are awesome!

I will say 2 weeks ago I went out in public in a bikini for the first time since 2004....pre-baby and pre-pregnancy. I did not try to hide my stretch marks I stood proud and played with my kiddos.

vegas_curls · 08-03-2012, 08:08 PM

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Just wondering if it's just me or do you ladies experience this:

Do you find that your mental image of yourself hasn't quite caught up to your actual size?

For me personally, it's like I see myself as bigger than I really am, so I still find myself gravitating toward larger sized clothes - and then kicking myself when I find they're too big.

- OR -

I'll fret whether I did the right thing by ordering my correct size when purchasing things online. (Which, thankfully, they always fit, but I'm always afraid I'm too big for the clothes.)

So, is it just me, or can any of you ladies relate?

I can relate definitely. I spent all of my teen years shopping at Plus Size only stores and would never even walk into other ones for fear of disappointment not being able to fit into a single thing in the store. Now sometimes I get a little feeling of being out of place going into mainstream stores. But I feel weird too going into Plus size stores cause most of the clothes there are too big.

I am still adjusting to my new body, because I have always thought of myself as a big girl. Taller, big personality, and wide gestures. My weight is a lot less, but I still think of my self as a big person. I don't think of it as's a bad thing and I don't know if it will ever totally go away.

One thing that is weird for me is having people look at me differently. I feel weird when people call me "skinny". I think my weight is healthy and I definitely look smaller than I have in the past, but I don't think I'm skinny, and I don't know if I'd ever be comfortable that way. I think I feel comfortable with being athletic, strong, and at a weight where I can best care for my body and health and maintain an active lifestyle.

+1 to the bold. Several people over the last month have called me skinny. I smile and say "thank you" because they meant it as a compliment, but still, I felt weird. I keep asking my husband if I look all right - not fishing for compliments - but this is the first time in life that I've EVER been called skinny, so I want to make sure that I still look healthy... and not like a pumpkin sitting on a fence post.

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On another note my fingers have started losing weight

Mine too. My wedding rings have gotten too big so now I have to be VERY careful when I'm at work and wash my hands there. Too many times I've almost wiped off one of my bands in the paper towels.

Speaking of which, I bought a size 14 skirt suit some time ago, but never had a chance to wear it. Tried it on this morning and to my surprise, it was roomy. As it is, I haven't been a size 14 since my junior/senior years of college, but if I'm starting to dawn on a 12, well then wow... I won't know what to do with myself.

inheritedcurls · 08-22-2012, 10:26 AM

I ran over 3 miles today out on the road...not much over 3...but anything counts right? I also ran 3 miles last week at a 9:05 pace...it's slowly coming down...

I feel like my muscles are breaking down again...hopefully clothes or the scale will show the difference in a couple of weeks.

aliquot · 08-24-2012, 01:05 PM

I can't believe this thread is still active! You ladies have achieved quite a bit while I have been gone lol. As an update to my original post, I got down to the upper 170s, but then stopped. Now I'm in the 190s again but trying to work my way back down! I went from a 40DD (at 245-ish) to a 36DDD (now), how does that even work?! My bf and I just bought an elliptical and I've been using it fairly consistently while playing video games... I've found that's pretty much the only way I can distract myself from how much I hate life when I work out. TV/movies/music doesn't do anything for me. I have to engage in something that requires mental effort like video games (final fantasy X right now). I just wish there was something I could do that I found fun that is also a workout, I unfortunately haven't been able to find anything that I enjoy... It always ends up being just plain expensive, requires too much coordination and makes me feel like an idiot, or otherwise just makes me too self conscious.

I also got a bone contusion in my foot last year that STILL has not healed properly and gives me some pain so I've had to get double wide shoes and orthotics to try to alleviate some of the pain. Sigh!