Say It. I Dare You. - Page 223

curlylaura · 02-19-2009, 03:42 PM

Guys don't call girls 'love' they way some girls call each other 'love' normally, do they?

Intuition is saying you like me, but it could also be wishful thinking on my part.

Lil'curls · 02-19-2009, 06:29 PM

I'm jealous of every mother I walk by because I want a baby so badly. Don't tell me I'm a slut, because I know I'm too young to have a baby, and I'm not planning on having one any time soon.

wild~hair · 02-19-2009, 07:45 PM

This isn't working out. I really got my hopes up here.

It's been a really long time. Whatever anyone else thinks is a long time to be alone, multiply that times 10. I've just been trying to be true to myself, be healthy, be happy. So why do I attract men who aren't ready for anything?

And now I've had to put on my big girl pants and ask the hard questions and get the answers I really don't want to hear. He's not ready. He's not even close. He's not taking this at all seriously. He's just getting his feet wet or something.

I think I'm going to be alone for a very long time. Faith and blind optimism only gets you so far. It scares me sometimes, there's just no one out there for me.

wild~hair · 02-19-2009, 11:05 PM

So this is sinking in now.

What a cluster****. I am realizing that this means you haven't been paying attention to me at all.

I've been taking the time to tell you things that were not easy to tell you, about my depression, about my recovery, and about my plans for the future. You've absorbed, apparently, none of it.

And a lot of it, you asked me about! That's what gets me the most. You asked me questions, I answered them, and you, what? Ignored them? Skimmed them?

Since you're so adamantly against children, it would have registered with you when I said that I wanted kids, TWICE, in the past year. IF you had actually read what I had written.

This is why you asked me who I lost, when I donated to the walk year before last. You had no clue what my motivation was, because you apparently never listened to me when I told you, in depth, about my struggles with depression.

You know what? **** you.

Looks like I dodged a bullet here. Disagreement over kids would have been the least of our problems.

wild~hair · 02-19-2009, 11:35 PM

Now I just have to remind myself that all of this ******** is going away from my life, making room for something infinitely better.

It's just on me to wait and watch for it.

Amandacurls · 02-20-2009, 09:53 AM

Don't mess with me, seriously you have no clue what you're getting yourself into. I am usually calm and passive, not overly defensive, but you try and come at me or do something to me, I take care of business. I don't allow myself to be treated as less than I am, it's just as simple as that. I can be nice or I can be a *****, but that's all up to you.

curly_carly-jane · 02-20-2009, 10:11 AM

Why do some men and women think they can judge you based on your lifestyle and what you choose to do in your sex life?!!! I don't give a **** what people think. Yes, I'm a girl, yes I love sex and yes, if I want to do it I'll do it with who I want! So what?!! Why should I live my life based around other peoples' insecurities, standards and morals?!! If I'm not hurting anybody and if I want to do it then what's the problem?!!! If you have a problem with that, say it to my ******* face!

I don't care what you think of me. I'm perfectly happy doing what I do. Yes, I love to be promiscuous, yes I love group sex, yes I love anal sex, yes I love to go orgies, yes I love to watch others. I'm happy and that's what matters.

WileE-Dead · 02-20-2009, 10:16 AM

badgercurls · 02-20-2009, 10:25 AM

You people exhaust me. Why are you all so passive aggressive? You don't communicate your expectations to us, and then when we fail to meet your expectations, you yell at us as if we were children. And you set terrible examples - perhaps if you modeled the behavior you wanted us to exhibit we'd pick up on it.

Amandacurls · 02-20-2009, 10:27 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by WilePECoyote - The Nudist Poster

*snort*

The New Black · 02-20-2009, 01:26 PM

"My mom told me I lost a leg, and it didn't really go through my mind. It didn't really go through my mind for, like, a month. I was like, 'Whatever, I lost a leg, it will grow back.' And then I was like, 'Wait a minute. No, it won't.'"

SarcasmIsBeauty · 02-20-2009, 01:43 PM

What's so hard about answering a simple question? Are you not capable of doing that? Then you say I seem mad, well gee I wouldn't be if you would just answer the damn question I asked in the first place!!!!

Lil'curls · 02-20-2009, 01:56 PM

My dress does not look like a nightgown or bathrobe.

The New Black · 02-20-2009, 02:53 PM

I might be turning lesbian...I'm in love with Sairis (and Mrs. Fields).

WileE-Dead · 02-20-2009, 03:07 PM

Starrwithoutnite · 02-20-2009, 05:22 PM

Im cracking up about this ****. I train my replacement for months, now Im back on shift, he is doing my old job and I am waiting quite patiently for my last 25 days to be complete so I can go on my civilian way. And you NOW pull my replacement for some other job and realize you have no one else to cover for him...did you not think about this before pulling him? Him being the ONLY other person able to do this job? And yes, I am being very smug about this because this is just one of the many many reasons why I cannot stand my leadership. YOU just dont think! I know that I can handle all this ******** for another 25 days because unlike you other sheep, I am cutting my losses and hitting the road! It seems so simple to me. Pull someone from the shift so the other 70 folks can cover for them when they are gone. Dont pull the one guy who is the only guy doing what he is doing...and in the meantime screwing ME! Cuz now I get to be forced back into my old craptasstic job for the rest of my time in. I wonder when it will hit them that I just really dont give a flying **** about any of this anymore

BRING IT ON!

Saria · 02-20-2009, 05:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Phoenix

I might be turning lesbian...I'm in love with Sairis (and Mrs. Fields).

And to think I never check this thread!

Why Phoenix, I had no idea!

I've often wished I could be a lesbian. I feel my life would be much easier.

Saria · 02-20-2009, 05:51 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Amda

I hate feeling like a social reject because I'm not out partying every Friday night and killing brain cells with drugs and alcohol like every other sixteen year old. I hate being shy and I'm afraid that people misinterpret it as being stuck up. I hate feeling like I'm wasting my life away by staying safely at home most nights.

I hate it that I'm not self-assured enough to honestly feel that I shouldn't be ashamed of these things in the first place.

That sounds like me. Just wait till college. This one moron referred to me as "the weird girl" thinking I was too far to hear him, apparently. Dumbass. But I am weird, so what? I'm 24 now and still have no desire to do any of that stuff.
Be who you want to be. Own it. You'll be better for it.

And Phoenix, you should really forget that horrid Mrs. Fields. She's giving you hydrogenated fats and all sorts of ingredients that nobody can pronounce. Just leave her alone and we'll get you some nice, freshly baked cookies.

Oh, and I am in the process of making some white chocolate mousse with passion fruit gelee right now . . .

Saria · 02-20-2009, 06:01 PM

I deactivated my facebook account because I couldn't bear to see him on it and get updates on what he was up to. I couldn't bear it this week especially, when he's living it up in Florida, probably boinking the supposed ex-girlfriend as we speak, while I'm here still thinking about whether it was all a lie from the beginning or it was true but he just didn't care about me even half of what I did (do) for him. And yet, I could have blocked him from facebook, but I couldn't bring myself to do that either.
I spent a good amount of Valentine's Day alone sobbing like I hadn't done in a long time, at different times throughout that day. And not because I've ever put any stock in that commercialized holiday, but just because. I guess it was just time for a breakdown.

WileE-Dead · 02-21-2009, 07:51 PM

Good Lord, you're such a fargin dumbass sometimes...