One of my coworkers likes me......I will stop short of telling him that I thinkin dating and relationships are a waste of my time. Wait, I did say that when I implied that I would rather study than be with a man. But yeah, I have gotten to the point where I would rather spend my time doing something more productive. I always wished I would never lose hope in love and relationships. Sigh. Thanks, men I have met. Y'all killed it.
I ain't thirsty. There's plenty of fish in the sea, but I don't want all of them, can I have some standards? Or do we just have to settle, for someone's who meh and will do. "
Tell me about school. What programme are you doing? Do you like it so far? How long is it?
Thank you! I feel like I've been given a brief glimpse into what being present is like and being a week without it I'm seeing the difference it makes. It's painful right now to know how clear things can be and then be thrown back into the fog. I went 3 whole weeks when I was on it without getting tipsy at home, and I've been so depressed these past few days that I've had half a bottle of wine to myself almost each night. It's so hard to socialize when it feels like people don't even exist. I get so focused and don't realized that I'm all twisted in my chair until someone interrupts my thoughts to tell me that I'm hunched and haven't heard a word they've said.
I'm doing a Bachelor Of Therapeutic Recreation. Philosophy wise I feel it matches me perfectly!!!! It's another 4 year degree (OY) I'm going to try again to get into an OT program (shorter and the pay it WAY better) but I think if I can get my head on straight and my confidence right I can be the most highly sought after TR specialist in my area.
This woman's first baby was taken by CFS.
She has a history of violence and is considered a threat to others.
She was unprepared for second baby and didn't get prenatal care because she didn't like doctors.
I'm feeling much better today. I can actually breathe! My ears and throat aren't as sore and the sinus pressure is much less. It is mildly sore instead of feeling like someone broke my face. I'm still getting a little dizzy if I overdo it, but I'm just trying to take it easy.
This morning, Danae was doing one of her silly dances and singing about her big butt. So of course, Davin starts saying, "Big butt!" LOL We were all dying laughing. Oh, and my plan to teach him, "Heck, no!" worked perfectly...mwahahahahaha!
"Maybe Lucy's right. Of all the Charlie Browns in the world, you're the Charlie Browniest."--Linus, A Charlie Brown Christmas
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So yesterday a woman told me how she once sat in a car on an Amtrak train where there was nobody else and a deranged guy sat next to her and would go ballistic unless she agreed with him. She gave him a fake phone number to placate him, said he would do stuff like put his hand on her lap, and she was afraid to try to get up and ask for help because she felt he would attack her.
The part of the story that really got to me though was when she said to me "and it's not like I was asking for it, I was in sweats and a hoodie, not like a mini-skirt". I said that even if she had she wouldn't have been "asking for it" anyway. I don't think my words were really processed, though. It takes a lot to undo the internalized idea that a woman is somehow at fault for men's harrassment.