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Fifi - I can't quote all your posts, but I feel all of them. I'd heard people lose theirbparents, and of course I felt sympathy for them, but I had no idea how much actual pain it causes. Sometimes I don't feel human. Most days I don't feel part of the same world as everyone else. I fake the usual everyday-ness, but I feel like I'm walking around in a bubble.

Nobody reached out to me either. Of course my mother - she lost her mother in her 20's so she could empathize. My bf who lost his dad at 18 - I couldn't have made it through the first few weeks without him - and his mother was very nice and reached out to me often. That was the extent of it. No phone calls or cards from anyone else I knew or who knew him. We didn't have a funeral. My dad was private and close with the people important to him. Me, bf, my stepmom and step brother went to the funeral home in NC to say goodbye, and I wrote an obituary (which my aunt changed before she submitted it to the paper). My family in MA wanted to hold a memorial 'get together' for people up here. I didn't go. I couldn't. I laid around in my pajamas and watched Supernatural for 2 weeks. I can't be around any family. My dad and I had issues w family anyway, but its too much of a reminder. And I cant talk to anyone either, Fifi. I had one friend calle crying that she needed me bc her bf broke up with her. As if.

KurlyKae, thank you for sharing your story. You too, Jess.

Speckla, doesn't it feel good to get off your chest?

I normally don't do this. I hate being vulnerable. I bottle up my feelings inside like a good little non overly emotional girl. And I'm horrible at opening up and crying in front of people.

Yes, I talk to my dad all the time. I just wish he'd talk back.


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Originally Posted by iroc

(((Big hug)))) I know this bubble you speak of (shock). I spent the first 4 months in it, and I still find myself there from time to time.

I have managed to start using past tense. It took a little while, because it was natural. You can't change something you have been doing all of your life over night. But, I need to eventually do it. That's what it is, but it all feels incredibly strange. It all seems like one big blur. I don't know how 7 months have gone by already.

I had plenty of people reach out. Family was beating down the door as my dads body was being removed. They did not stop. My friends called and asked to come to the graveside service, told me they would be there, and did not. I guess, no matter what, it's all going to seem backwards. I had so many people around when I needed a moment to myself *don't get me wrong, they helped, more than I understood then* and no one around who I really needed and felt more comfortable falling apart around. My mom on the other hand, had everyone she needed, which was great. That's the only thing that stopped me from screaming, "GTFO"!! :-/ I'm not going to blame anyone. I think about and stop myself. It's misplaced anger, I know it, but that does not stop you from feeling it. I just need some time to get past it. And at this point I honestly have no idea what to say. None of my closest friends have lost a parent so they won't understand my crazy I am thankful for that.

As others said, it is going to take time. You have to keep on keeping on, and talk to people who get it when needed. Things will get better. I'm not sure when, but I know they will.
When I hear terms like "hipster" I think, who told cliques they could leave high school??


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Why do so many websites these days require you to create an account just to shop on their website? No! Just NO! Ain't nobody got time fo dat!
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Work just tried to get me to come in tonight at 5. Lol no.

I'm there tomorrow and Sunday. I was there yesterday. I think that's enough for this weekend.

And yeah, I consider Thursday to be the weekend since I don't have class on Friday! Haha

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I find my face in this pic hilarious. I look so... distressed? Desperate? Which, incidentally, is almost always how I feel when I'm playing roller derby.

Originally Posted by Springcurl
I'm pretty sure my face would look like this if I were playing roller derby

I'm trying to book a car and flight for my sorority sister's wedding/ little sister's high school graduation in Dallas and Houston, respectively and whennnnn did car rentals get so expensive? Has it always been like this? I've never rented a car before.

Where do they have cheap car rentals? How do I life? asdhkshakdsakhkjsahkdjhsakll
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I find my face in this pic hilarious. I look so... distressed? Desperate? Which, incidentally, is almost always how I feel when I'm playing roller derby.

Originally Posted by Springcurl
I'm pretty sure my face would look like this if I were playing roller derby

Originally Posted by B-wavy

(that's how I feel inwardly)

On the other side of the coin, I don't think I look fat... just solid.
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Sorry guys - I'm not allowed to even mention or discuss my artwork or bookbinding on the boards from now on. Nor is anyone else.

I can't link to Etsy because its considered promoting but I can link to a FB... which promotes my shop?

Well. It was fun discussing it with everyone while we could!
Originally Posted by kat180
Thumbs down to this policy. Here we have a member succeeding at creating her own non-competitive-with-NC business and she can't even talk about it. This is an exaggerated reaction on behalf of NC.

If she was selling hair products, perhaps I could understand it. But she isn't: she's selling art. Her own art. Art that in no way competes with NC, its products, or its mission.

I think many of us enjoy hearing about Kat's well-earned success. This clampdown should be reconsidered.
Originally Posted by claudine19
Well I don't know if they're gonna be that strict about the whole thing, but I'm kind of getting that vibe from the whole 'any other thread will also be shut down' and 'people can pm if they want to contact you'.

A shame because it was fun chatting about it all with everyone. C'est la vie.
Originally Posted by kat180
I understand the rule. It's black and white. But how it's applied is NOT. What sandals are you wearing? thread: I asked spring1onu what kind of sandals were in 2 photos she posted and she told me the brands and either provided new links or the photos were links themselves (I don't remember...) but that violates the rule. So does whoever recently posted about a Maidenform bra sale going on. Just like when Rou posts about Mac products coming out new or going on sale. Same thing when I asked someone on the needle, hook thread where they got the pattern they used to crochet a cowboy hat for a baby, and they provided me with a link to an Etsy store and the product. ALL of them are promoting a certain product, thus they all are actually advertising. So why are some allowed and some are not??? Is it self-promotion that isn't allowed????? That's not in the rule itself.

If you aren't interested in a bra sale, or a Mac sale or a new Etsy store, you just don't click on that thread.

No one felt pressured to buy from kayb, I am certain of that. We were supporting her emotionally, cheering her on. And some of us are super excited about upcoming things that don't even exist yet which we dare not name!

I think it's worth repeating: If you aren't interested in a bra sale, or a Mac sale or a new Etsy store, you just don't click on that thread.
I find my face in this pic hilarious. I look so... distressed? Desperate? Which, incidentally, is almost always how I feel when I'm playing roller derby.

Originally Posted by Springcurl
I'm pretty sure my face would look like this if I were playing roller derby

Originally Posted by B-wavy

(that's how I feel inwardly)

On the other side of the coin, I don't think I look fat... just solid.
Originally Posted by Springcurl
Lol, thats how I judge a good picture. "Hey, I don't look fat here!" Haha.



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I find my face in this pic hilarious. I look so... distressed? Desperate? Which, incidentally, is almost always how I feel when I'm playing roller derby.

Originally Posted by Springcurl
Love it! 'I've got to do stuff... things... now!' Roller derby looks like so much fun to me. A former classmate of mine does derby. She is always asking me to come out and watch, and see if I am interested in joining.
When I hear terms like "hipster" I think, who told cliques they could leave high school??

I can get the link thing, and I see why they want to thwart self advertising, but people can't talk about an etsy shop or stuff they bought bc the owner is a member? We talk about a hundred other products and stores and things on here.

Thats all, I know we've been warned twice. I don't want to get tge Say it thread locked!


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Love it! 'I've got to do stuff... things... now!' Roller derby looks like so much fun to me. A former classmate of mine does derby. She is always asking me to come out and watch, and see if I am interested in joining.
Originally Posted by Fifi.G

Do eeet!


Obamacare is not a blueprint for socialism. You're thinking of the New Testament. ~~ John Fugelsang




Lol, thats how I judge a good picture. "Hey, I don't look fat here!" Haha.


Originally Posted by iroc
haha!! Always. Also, I FEEL so fat sometimes and then when I see an action shot of me I'm like, "oh."


Obamacare is not a blueprint for socialism. You're thinking of the New Testament. ~~ John Fugelsang



Love it! 'I've got to do stuff... things... now!' Roller derby looks like so much fun to me. A former classmate of mine does derby. She is always asking me to come out and watch, and see if I am interested in joining.
Originally Posted by Fifi.G

Do eeet!
Originally Posted by Springcurl
I am 99.999% sure that I would love it. It just might be hard to keep up with practices, etc, with my work schedule. My classmate seems to do okay, and she is a doctor with insane hours.
When I hear terms like "hipster" I think, who told cliques they could leave high school??


Lol, thats how I judge a good picture. "Hey, I don't look fat here!" Haha.


Originally Posted by iroc
haha!! Always. Also, I FEEL so fat sometimes and then when I see an action shot of me I'm like, "oh."
Originally Posted by Springcurl
Excuse me??? You gave me whiplash there! You are so not fat! I see that photo of you and the first thing I think is you look great: powerful, strong and that, my dear, is hot and sex-ay!
^ Truth.
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When I hear terms like "hipster" I think, who told cliques they could leave high school??


Lol, thats how I judge a good picture. "Hey, I don't look fat here!" Haha.


Originally Posted by iroc
haha!! Always. Also, I FEEL so fat sometimes and then when I see an action shot of me I'm like, "oh."
Originally Posted by Springcurl
Excuse me??? You gave me whiplash there! You are so not fat! I see that photo of you and the first thing I think is you look great: powerful, strong and that, my dear, is hot and sex-ay!
Originally Posted by goldencurly


Thank you! Truth is, though, I'm pretty fat! I'm 5'2 and 175 pounds. Fat by anyone's standards-- Obese by the charts. But I'm physically fit, at least.


Obamacare is not a blueprint for socialism. You're thinking of the New Testament. ~~ John Fugelsang




Lol, thats how I judge a good picture. "Hey, I don't look fat here!" Haha.


Originally Posted by iroc
haha!! Always. Also, I FEEL so fat sometimes and then when I see an action shot of me I'm like, "oh."
Originally Posted by Springcurl
The curse of large boobs in pictures. I either feel fatter than I look, or look fatter than I feel!


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When I hear terms like "hipster" I think, who told cliques they could leave high school??

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Lol, thats how I judge a good picture. "Hey, I don't look fat here!" Haha.


Originally Posted by iroc
haha!! Always. Also, I FEEL so fat sometimes and then when I see an action shot of me I'm like, "oh."
Originally Posted by Springcurl
Excuse me??? You gave me whiplash there! You are so not fat! I see that photo of you and the first thing I think is you look great: powerful, strong and that, my dear, is hot and sex-ay!
Originally Posted by goldencurly

You got that va-va-voom-booty-boom-boom pinup girl vibe going on.

iroc,
Yeah it does feel good to get it off my chest. It still doesn't feel any lighter though (chest that is) .

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