You're not alone in this at all, CL. Sometimes family sucks.Yesterday I told my mum I had considered doing myself in at 17, her response "I thought of doing that numerous times when you and your brother were toddlers blah blah blah blah... It was so much worse for me blah blah blah" Thanks mum. I don't want to tell her anything else because she'll have been through it and it'll have been soooo much worse and my situation will just be dismissed as irrelevant and unimportant.
I probably dress like you too, and I'm twice your age.
You are swell as you are.