Im not exactly in the same position as you. But I know how you feel. I just graduated with an illustration degree. Can I find a job yet? No. Do I get looks and comments from people because of it? Yes. Its the kind of industry (and I want to be in publishing too- writing and illustrating my own books) that is very hard to get into and can take a very long time. Example- Jill Murphy author of famous Worst Witch books (well very famous here) took her 9 years of rejection to finally get published and now look how successful she has been. This is more of an example that relates to me rather than you, but I think its just as hard to get anything published.Oh I know that feeling. Being a writer is rough, especially nowadays with the job market being crappy and all. I'm a post grad with a BA in Creative Writing and it's been hell trying to get a job and hold onto it, let alone work on my novel. it's especially annoying when people ask you questions like "What are you doing?" "How many pages have you written?" and my personal favorite "Are you done yet?" Makes me want to hide under my deskthank you ladies, very much.
but I don't know if i can chase my dreams. and it would disappoint my parents so much.
but I don't know how I'm going to be able to do what my brothers did. and in the end, a 9-5 job just isn't appealing to me.
but how do I tell my parents, who have so many expectations, that I don't think I can do ib/ap/volunteering/sports/extracurriculars, that all I want to do is write? where there is no place in this world for a writer, especially not one that isn't 'typical', one whose stories can't be made into a movie deal and there's no money in writing, no one reads any more, and getting published is impossible...
and I want it so much.
and I'm sorry for the rambling, but today I need to tell someone.
I don't know if you are college bound or what, but may try looking into writing programs? There are a lot of excellent ones out there, the one in Iowa (can't remember the name) being one of the most popular ones. Maybe if you do some research and present the information to your parents you can get them to let you do want you want. Hang in there!
I too, am different from the typical and 'popular' childrens illustration you see out there-but I have been told not to conform to what you see, because publishing industry goes though 'fads' and if I changed to fit in, I'd just be lost among a crowd. You have to stick to your instincts and natural talent and look for a publisher or change in the market where your work will be the new, exciting and most refreshing thing out there!
Don't give up on your dreams- your parents will come around, and if they dont, well, its your life, not theirs! Good luck with it all!