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The golden autumn light at dusk today was weird and lovely. I turned off all the indoor lights so it would fill the living room. It didn't last long --- it rained, suddenly --- but it was good for a while. Like life, sometimes.
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In other news, I consulted with my doctor and upped my medication. We'll see what happens.
I'm really thinking about going back to the pawn shop and begging for some hours. I think they'd take me back because the manager had the hots for me majorly, but then I'd have to deal with his mits on me all the time. I'm starting to think that would be better than working with these crazy women. I'm sorry but I hate working with women. They bring their personal crap into work and drag their feelings into everything. Why not just do your job? I've never heard of a part-time job that is 5 days a week, either. Me: Can't I combine my hours into 3 or 4 days instead of working 5 4-hour days? Boss: No. I need you here every day. Who would get my lunch????
I really want to make a change, but something keeps holding me back.
I just want to laugh and have it be genuine. This week has been a really hard one. One of my closest friends here (and someone I love) just fell off the face of the earth, I've realized there is no way in hell I can afford to get a student visa (even if I can pay the tuition and housing, cause maintenance is a witch) without my mom using the house as collateral for a loan, me feeling lonely, and trying really hard not to self harm. I can't. I just can't.
Sorry I cared...it won't happen again.
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I'm fairly certain that given a cape and a nice tiara, I could save the world." - Leigh Standley

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{{{kayb}}} please please take care of yourself.
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{{kayb}}





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I need a nap. only 3 hours sleep last night after all that stress.

I'm a mess today. I keep trying to meditate to clear my mind of all this chatter and I can't. I'm stuck on the first line. Just repeating and repeating. I'm hoping it will make its way in soon. I need help.

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Heart broken bc the Yankees lost boo hoo!
Turtles: omg please don't put that in your moo moo

Nej: too late... moo moo has been infiltrated.
{{kayb}}

Originally Posted by Curlyminx
{{{kayb}}} please please take care of yourself.
Originally Posted by TRBL

Thanks guys. Feeling better today. I have someone coming over tomorrow so hopefully having someone else in the house will get me out of this funk.
Can't help but have a huge grin because the Yankees lost.
I want the rain to come. a few drops just doesn't cut it
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Can't help but have a huge grin because the Yankees lost.
Originally Posted by Saria
+1
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It's nearly midday and I'm still in my jama's. It's raining. I want to go to the gym but can't be bothered. I need to go food shopping but can't be bothered. I want to get my xmas shopping done but can be arsed, even though I'm planning on doing it on the internet.

At least my flat is clean though, except the bathroom, because I need to buy some bathroom cleaner but can't be bothered to go shopping.

I'm stuck in one of those circle thingies.
Fat does not make you fat. It's actually pretty important.
lol^

Sounds like me most days. I have lost the will to do anything. I may go buy a book just to get me out the house, but then it looks like rain here too....
Can't help but have a huge grin because the Yankees lost.
Originally Posted by Saria
+1
Originally Posted by redcelticcurls
What evil women!!!!!
But it's ok, Yanks will win #28 next year! I hope the rangers go home ring-less!
Turtles: omg please don't put that in your moo moo

Nej: too late... moo moo has been infiltrated.

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SarcasmisBeauty: Hope this makes you feel better

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Lmaoooo kayb! I just burst into laughter, gaahhh I'm so immature lol but immaturity keeps us young right? RIGHT?! I think jeepie will agree
Turtles: omg please don't put that in your moo moo

Nej: too late... moo moo has been infiltrated.
lol^

Sounds like me most days. I have lost the will to do anything. I may go buy a book just to get me out the house, but then it looks like rain here too....
Originally Posted by kat180
(hugs) the will will return.

Remember, Pillars of the Earth tonight, even though you've already seen it
Fat does not make you fat. It's actually pretty important.

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