I found my 40s were a time when I was really hit with a lot of pain from my childhood. The abuse that I thought I had overcome and put behind me decades earlier, snuck up and hit me like a hammer. It was like it was crystal clear all over again. I hear of many 40-somethings going through similar pain and suffering, so I don't think it's all that unusual. I was able to put it in perspective and overcome it again. I hope you can too. Hang in there Speckla. You are stronger and more resilient than you know.
I 3rd RCW. I think different birthdays provide "light bulb moments". You either figure something out and gain understanding or are working out an internal conflict. Mine seem to hit on 1's or 9's. Big hugs to you. A release can be the best.
2/c and some 3A. Modified CG.
Highly porous. Color over grey.
Best 1st day method: Super Soaker
Conditioners: Curl Junkie Beauticurls Strengthening Conditioner,
Deep condish: Curl Junkie Curl Rehab
Stylers: Mix Curls in a Bottle into everything for shine. Terrible pj
Sometimes try roller sets - classic glamor but I prefer my curls. Every day is a gift