I hate myself. I hate how socially retarded I am. I try so hard to not be shy and really try it sucks. Today sucked, I really wanted the job here and the lady shut me off so quick, I wish I could lie too, Why did I say I've never painted faces before? Why couldn't I lie?! I'm so tired of how I act and how my life goes. And everyone laughs because they think I'm funny but I'm so miserable on the inside, yea its a joke but if all the ridiculousness that happens to me happened to you it wouldn't be that funny. AND I know there is much worse in the world to be sad about but this is my world and it sucks.