I physically and emotionally can't take it anymore. People are ALWAYS commenting that I'm the most ambitious person they know, that I've probably done more than anybody else my age...but my mother just looks at me and sees failure failure failure.

I feel so, so terrible. I can't take her anymore. I can't take THIS anymore.

I'd also like to point out that NO OTHER WOMAN in my family has EVER supported herself until she had a man so it's not like my sister ever did a thing on her own until she was moving in with her boyfriend. Every single job she's ever had she's gotten due to connections and didn't have to interview for. She has never had to go through what I did.

I'm so sad. I feel so badly about myself.

She kept screaming at me the my last job was a HUGE mistake, but I wouldn't have traded those three years for ANYTHING. I met amazing people, did great things, my boss financed my off-Broadway production, I met one of my best friends in the world.

I hate that she hates me so much. I hate that she thinks I'm such a failure. I don't know what I did to earn this.