This is going to sound so insensitive, but it's not meant to...

I feel like I attend a disproportionate amount of funerals/viewings compared to everyone else.

I realize that kind of comes with having a big family, but... I don't know. It's still weird.

You'd think by now that I'd be less awkward when it comes to them, but alas, they still make me really uncomfortable. Viewings, at least. I can handle the actual funeral.

"And death is at your doorstep
And it will steal your innocence
But it will not steal your substance
But you are not alone in this"

“My ability to turn good news into anxiety is rivaled only by my ability to turn anxiety into chin acne.” - Tina Fey