Lord, I had to join this site, cause it was killing me reading this post! Go ahead and perm your hair! If it turns out great, then there you go. If its a big disappointment, then you can just transition or big chop and go back to natural. Or texlax or something. It point is, its just hair. Nothing else. Whatever you do to it, it'll grow back (most of the time). I big chopped Sept 21, 2012 after transitioning 9 months. Is my hair exactly as I imagined? No, but I love it and the experience of being natural. However, I have always felt just as strongly that we all should feel completely free to do whatever to the top of our heads. If i had hated this experience, I would have been right back at CVS buying my Optimum box perm. Otherwise we're not actually "freely natural."